I want to be more. I want to be more for someone else more than i want to be more for me (confusing much?). Yet, I know they don't want or need me to be more than I already am. I want to be more helpful, but they don't ever ask for help, and what's coming is something I doubt that I can help with at all. Its something that can't be messed up, but that's all I see myself as doing when it comes to helping them.
The next few months will really be my hardest. I'll be trying to change in several ways, trying to help someone I care for, and trying to learn a whole new way of interacting with several people.. I believe I can manage this, but I don't believe i can do it without breaking down or making mistakes mistakes that I feel can't be afforded in the times ahead.. But they will be made, and only time will tell how much they will affect me and those I care for...